A year ago today my father was killed in a car accident and my sister was seriously injured.  I can hardly believe its already been a year.  And what a year it has been.  I have felt loss and pain that I never imagined.  Heartache, emptiness and at times very alone…

[Let me just say, I am not usually one to post my woes on the internet.  One reason I haven’t kept up with this blog the past two months. I have definitely had a very trying couple of months. But this isn’t about that.  It is about honesty.  And this is honestly how I have felt…]

Sometimes like the wind is just knocked right out of me and breathing becomes work…

But amongst all of this sadness, anger and grief I have found some very bright light.  I have found the true importance of friendship and learned that I am VERY lucky to have amazing friends.  Friends that I would consider family.  In fact I have found my “family” in NYC.  I am finding my music.  Something that has been inside for a very long time and dying to come out…And I am making that happen. I am learning more about myself and my wants and needs.  And I am getting better at expressing them. I have paid off my debt :) A HUGE burden released.

So many good things to be grateful for…Not to mention, I still have my mother, my sister and my nephew today.  All of which were in the car on that tragic day.  They are alive and healthy and still moving forward and doing great things.  Such an amazing family to be a part of…

I am not sure what exactly I am trying to say through all of this…Maybe its a time of reflection.  Or a reassurance of all the good in my life.  Its hard sometimes to recognize all that is good when the hurt is so bad…But that is what I am working on.  Maybe big setbacks offer big positive change.  I like to believe that there is a BRIGHT light at the end of these tunnels and as long as we can keep moving forward there is something REALLY BIG that we are just getting ready for. 

So, this is my attempt to get back on track with my blog and see whats in store for the rest of this crazy 29th year of my life.  So far it is definitely one of great impact..I hope to share the rest!  

ok…i am really gonna have to look at a calendar for this…

233 days to 30…

kc